*ROUND 2 – i wasn’t happy with the first 750 words so I went again

The challenge is to speak and share publicly, not frightened into inactivity by your insecurities. Rather, use those very insecurities to power your greatness. Look at the suffering you encounter, and use that to fuel you.  Continually push your limits and realize greater potentials for yourself.

Trust that what you have to share is more necessary than the criticism you have about yourself that prevent you from sharing. I’m not speaking these things to convince you of anything. I’m only publicizing my process in hopes that it helps.

So the call is for boldness. They say fortune favours the bold. Beauty – Soul. Be bold. It is to allow your fundamental awareness to shine.

This is an act of courage.

This is the uncomfortable introvert in me laughing at himself in the mirror.

This is an invitation to flow because it feels good and is joyous. I’m not here to impress you but as an advocate for you to find your own inner flow state.

I sing because it feels good. I write because it feels good. And I want to share that loveliness with the world.

I have lived with the worry of being a burden, and it is time I cast that off. I accept that my voice is important. And I share it. Because, why not? It will likely do more good than harm.

I believe that my message is very valuable.

I believe that my message is very valuable.

I believe that my message is very valuable.

This entire undertaking, 66 days of words, is a bold statement. I find that believing in my value is important if I am to continue doing so. And this becomes an experiment.

Not really attached to the results but driven by a curiosity. A what if?

What if I did write a book? What if I do share my insights with people, one idea at a time? What if my contribution is important?

I don’t have these answers, but one way to seek them is by undertaking the experiment.

So I dare you. Be bold!

Do that thing that you’ve been thinking about doing. Maybe it’s been a day, or a year, or a lifetime, but it’s never to late to try that thing.

Be bold.

Dare to make mistakes.

I know at my core what I align with. I know what the voice in my head is really saying. I know that what I have to offer has great importance, if not to you, than to me and others.

I have seen the miracles mind set and understand why communicating it is useful.  I have been inspired through great works of art and philosophy.

I understand that the unfolding of pure awareness is the legacy of our species and the more people that find inner peace, the greater the peace on the planet will be.

In this post I am inspired to write as openly and freely as I can in support of the boldness that beauty desires.

I think of Dionysus. And his bold creativity, ecstatic revelry.

I hear the encouragement from the silent spirits I represent. Speak up young one. I give you my tongue. Speak free.

Work not for me, but for the truth of eternity. Let your work return reverence to life. Allow people to grow and change. Be compassionate but fierce.

Know your worth.

Know that you represent the natural law. Know that you role model integrity and courage and peace. Understand that that is beyond any financial compensation, and you don’t need to wait for that to embody that.

Humble yourself, because you acknowledge how you fail to meet the ideal. But continuously, you get up. So that you can try again. And again. And know that as long as you continue to show up, you will succeed.

So humble yourself to the planet. Give thanks for the food, for the air, for the water. Give thanks to the land the sky and the ocean. Give thanks for the light and the sun. Give thanks for all of the people that have suffered and succeeded in order to make this life we lead possible. Give thanks for the very experience of being alive.

A love letter to my best self.
I see you. You work hard. So hard. Constantly vigilant to the miscreants of the mind. You love deeply, and selflessly. You sincerely want the best for all people. You hold no ill will in your heart. You accept that you are imperfect and make mistakes. But you get up every. Single. Time.  You are a beacon of light and love and the world is better with you in it. Move forward knowing that you are blazing a trail of radical reverence. Demonstrate respect for life by harmonizing the opposites. Establish a culture of peace.

I have spoken, letting my inner critic stop nothing. Or less. Some of these thoughts I am afraid to speak. I’ve been afraid to believe that I have value because of the reality that I might not have value. I have chosen to not even present what I do have because I fear it might be rejected. That is a tough pill to swallow.

And so this post, is wildly courageous, and even if it fails, whatever that means, because I’m starting to believe that just sharing it is a victorious act.  But if it does prove to be irrelevant and unnecessary, at least I’ll be able to move on. Knowing that I have tried and it has not worked. Instead of spinning my wheels for 80 years dying as I wonder what could have been.

*ROUND 1

It is a screaming. A yelling. An echoing through time, which is the echo as time. And it is nothing other than the true natural law. There is no other possibility. Truth is what is.

There is a willingness, an openness to expression.
And I try not. Therefor not tinted by the intention of man’s mind, that is desires and aims of the ego. It is pure spirit. Not filtered.

And so the word is ‘soul’. The definition of soul. Sole.
And it invariably exists. It just depends how you connect to the word.
But what it represents is your connection to reality.
The fundamental frequencies that you vibrate with.
From where you draw your power.
And it is an expression which exists in lesser and greater powers.
We have direct points in our mental-emotional-physical fields at which we touch the physical reality.

There is a fundamental energy that we take in and put out. We are transformers and radios. We understand numbers and letters; logic and reason. And in out greatest states, I hypothesize, we are fueled by the greater state the all synthesis of the one state, harmonizing. Balancing. Reconciling the opposites.

Understanding opposition on a spectrum. Understanding polarity and the positions we take. The energetic stances we make. That’s why change is the key, willingness to adopt what will be.

But eventually no intention. Feeling for the sake of feeling.
Understanding Feeling without intetntion. It is rooted in acceptance, and allowance. Understanding, coming into tune with the harmony of nature. Tune. Tone. Aesthetic frequencies.

Thoughts + Actions + Words = Deliberate and pointed actions which will lead to the next state.

It is important to acknowledge the succession of events. And that is why both rhythm and cause and effect are important. Understanding the greater and the lesser pattern. From where do you draw your energy, and to where do you distribute your energy.

Tune into that.

These two points of contact.
Your inhalation.

And your exhalation.

I am beginning to understand how things I perceived as ‘sad’ are actually truth and happy. And learning how to polarize one’s self. That is what’s important.

You are a vehicle of energy, on a mental and physical level.

Mind. A tool for logic and reason. Very powerful indeed. Ability to manipulate thermal, kinetic, electro magnetic energies. Man mind now understands laws of nature and the power of light. For eons earthling has studied the stars. The movements of bodies larger than ourselves to navigate and write stories. And now, in my home town. My metropolis. I scarcely see them, for man has learned to manipulate this power of god. This language of light. And we have mined and resourced it. Lights in your homes. And communications light years away. Lenses can correct your eyes. Optics. Bio mimicry is the greatest humility for science. Let nature lead the ways. Understand how she works, and mimic her. Let her feed herself.

But mind and body we have. And I implore you. If you feel resolute to make one change after hearing me speak, let it be this. ‘I will pause for one breath, and attempt to feel it fully,

without the inebriation and dominance of a thought. For now, one breath with great effort to be aware of how it feels in my nostrils and in my head.

I will surrender thought for one minute, as I tune into this breath in my body. 

Because I know that in my body, my mind is tuning into something natural. Present. Your breath is always, ‘in the moment’ never forget that. So ground yourself in this present moment. I will ground myself.  [Dropping an anchor]

‘When my thoughts exist in orbits of intense magnitudes. How we collapse neutron stars on a microcosmic scale. We are universes of activity and action. We are the energies of god and the universe, on a micro scale. We are positioned between the atom and the light speed, determined by our processing speed. The smallest point. And the largest. Imagine the energy of a laser. Light, or attention, the light within you, the ‘masculine’ force. So focused that it can bounce off itself and create new realities.  And so we, as intelligent hominoids. Are not only god powers, but we are aware of god. And the creative effulgence.

How the infinite eternal is a torus manifold without end. A waterfall of truth. Water falls, from the sky, to nourish the earth, and bring luscious green life. The oceans are blue, and feed up into the clouds.

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That was bold.
It is in ecstatic devotion to the idea of beauty.
Synonymous with art, and love, and truth, and god.
Different words, but explanations of the same motion picture.
It is with reverence I use the word Life.
And word.

Word is the mind, the mind of god. The mind of man.
It exists before the world of forms.
As an ideal, and towards ideals,
actions occur. Abstractions of the truth.
All of earthly life is an abstract of our minds will.
When one has aligned word and will
one achieves great power.
That is what we train for.
To align the breath, and this present moment,
with the intended state.
Through the breath,
we bring the future projected state into the now.
And concentrate the emotions of the altered world,
making it real, by breathing the idea of it into your existence.
And condensing your state, through this idea, you create gravity on a mental-emotional-physical scale.

So this simple one thing I say,
the one word take-away is breath.

I will for just one breath, commit to feeling it in my nostril. As the air, cooling as it comes in, warmer as it goes out. And I realize that the thoughts I am thinking, project the next thoughts I am thinking.

So the trick to getting out of negative thought patterns, and to be clear, that is thought patterns which do not support Life, is to focus on the breath and body. Purely body, and to not give thoughts any special attention. Surrender thinking itself. Let go of thoughts, for just five minutes today I will let go of the thinking mind and tune into my body. I will feel the blood in my forearms as I type. My elbows and bones throughout my body. I feel my stomach and guts. I focus on my spine. Spine, the wand, connecting the brain to the base. [the sensitive asshole]

Be clear. These are not thoughts.
You can think about feeling your spine, but instead put your mind into your spine. But see it’s so big. Our body is such an intensely complex vessel that it’s hard to focus. And that is why we start with the breath. The very subtle, the breath.
And we see, that as the awareness becomes more and more centered. As it concentrates on the experience of the present moment, and not an idea of the present moment. It feels keenly into it’s intuitive body.

I trust, that the observation of the breath, leads to good things.
I trust that it will invite clarity into my mind.

If you will,
consider your mind as a computer,
and if you find that is freezing, or just running low on space,
you can use meditation to remove non-essential programs. To clean it up.

With anapanna meditation, as an objective viewer, you consult each program (thought pattern) you are holding, and consider how necessary it is for your computer to run. And from here you can let go of non-essentials that are taking up processing power. You can let go of negative states by not identifying them. No longer giving them power.
By not reacting to the stories we are telling ourselves, we give them the opportunity to dissolve. And as you remove any programs you don’t really need, you feel more free. Like you’ve got more energy, for the things that really matter.
Ultimately, even letting go of your own identity.
And this freedom live with ease.
When Amen realizes the ideal. (amen = all men = father son and holy spirit = trinity)

Peace = understanding and living in accordance with the laws of nature.

In that peace, all opposites are reconciled in unity, as the fundamental laws are understood. How our minds can perceive the duality and the unity. Like quantum mechanics ability to see light as a particle and a wave.

Thoughts are not the end all and be all. There is a state which transcends the ego mind. And so I will surrender to the breath.

Trusting that as I concentrate my mind, the truth will become more clear. And I can lve in alignment with that.

As I react less, an objectively view more, I realize that all thoughts are stemming from a feeling in my body. And I will begin to see how certain thoughts make me feel in different ways. Make me breathe in different ways. And I will being to understand which thoughts lead to creation, and which lead to destruction.

And as I grasp that, that I intake and output, in a constant change, never the same, I feel that at any moment in time. I might start something new. That I can choose to stop.

To stop that idea, that thought pattern.

And breathe it through.

With acceptance, and willingness, I tune to the breath.